A letter I sent to one of the few brave people who have followed the progress of VisionFromFeeling from the very start, JREF Forum member Akhenaten. People are still writing and being very opinionated about the work I am doing with VFF, yet nobody is talking to me anymore, and it has resorted into some sort of private club filled with personal insults and remarks against me personally, yet treating me as if I am some sort of fictional character.

Dave,

Can you talk to me off the record? I once broke down and had this conversation with Jim Carr back when he and me were still talking. Can you talk to me for real? I mean, all this VFF / Akhenaten business quickly becomes so abstract, artificial and unreal and the reality of it all becomes lost. It becomes like a theatre or charades and I get all confused and people shut me out and just make fun of it all.

I’m really suffering here, well, for the brief moments that I try to dedicate myself to my VFF work. I have so many questions that I’d just like to ask you skeptical guys who have been following this whole thing, but everyone just treats it like it’s some big joke and as if I am not even a real person at all.

Is it really that bad, what I am doing? Do I really need to stop, and why? What harm am I doing, to myself, to others, now or in the future?

How come no one has ever mentioned the results that I had of my TAM test, that I actually only not-saw a kidney in two of the ten spaces and that to me, it really seems significant? Because in seven of the other remaining I was seeing the kidney many times and cleary, in one of the eight I saw only once. Isn’t that interesting? Is that nothing at all? Was it luck? Should I not have yet another test?

And does it really come across as if all I am doing is wanting attention? Is that really so, or is that only something that people are saying?

How come everyone just makes fun of me and makes all these personal attacks, calling me fat one day and a sexually manipulative slut the other, narcissist, delusional, a fraud and a liar, and how come the discussions are not about the results of my tests and not keeping on topic to actually discuss the investigation I am doing? How come so much attention is placed on myself as a person and on perceived personality characteristics of me, when those have got nothing to do with my test results?

Perhaps it is all just a joke, for you guys. Perhaps it should not even matter. You are not a forum for solid advice on testing and investigation, you guys are just out to have a bit of fun. Is that so?

When I first came into the JREF Forums, I actually found good useful advice, which I implemented into my test design. Now it’s all been a joke for you guys.

Well, I have these, and many more questions to ask you. I just wish you people would treat me like a real person, sometimes it seems that VFF has just become a sort of a “thing”, and it goes you all by that I am actually a real person.

You know, I am starting to wish I would just become a regular woo. You know, one of those guys that make $2,000 USD for a reading, get lots of positive feedback and admiration, lots of people to practice on and none of this nonsense from the skeptics. Seriously, there are plenty other woos who are actually practicing, ie. using, a claim similar to what is the focus of my investigations, and nobody such as a Jim Carr is paying them any attention.

Why me? Who is investigating and trying to falsify and show with evidence why these things do not work? Perhaps I should just join the woo woo community, but I simply can not. I am a scientist at heart.

I just see these things and it is really interesting, and… I have rambled on too far. You are probably not even listening anymore.

Anita Ikonen

Akhenaten is a member of the JREF Forum, found here, in which I started my activity in the skeptical movement but have since been excluded due to conflict of interest. Jim Carr is a man who is my foremost opponent. He has written a critical, and often inaccurate, website against my investigation, found here.

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